Weekly Report #94 - The Boundaries of Life and Sense of Reality

Introduction#

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This article is a record and reflection on life from 2025-04-28 to 2025-05-04.

This week is the May Day holiday, a long-awaited break. I set aside my fatigue and anxiety and "slacked off" for a few days, watching shows, exercising, and hosting friends. I found that I could seemingly regain some rhythm in life; I also caught up on Rust and SwiftUI courses and restructured previous projects; there were many interesting things.

The Boundaries of Life and Sense of Reality#

Boundaries#

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I often feel like I have a string that is always taut, not necessarily from any specific pressure from work or life, but a kind of anxiety that comes from within. For example, with a complete weekend, I find it hard to truly relax and play games for a whole day (even though I really want to finish "Pokémon Scarlet/Violet"). I schedule many "productive" tasks for myself, yet I fall into a cycle of self-blame when my learning or goal achievements do not meet expectations.

However, this May Day holiday had some exceptions. Before the holiday, I still arranged many learning and work tasks for myself, but I "wasted" several afternoons indulging in a new Korean drama "My Liberation Notes" and playing "It Takes Two." Yet, I seemed to melt into this comfortable routine, setting aside those negative emotions and simply enjoying it.

It seems like it has been a long time since I felt this way, even if it is just the simple and rightful act of "resting on a holiday."

While watching "Severance," I often think that my current life sometimes does not allow for a complete separation of work and life through an elevator like in the show, and I even feel a bit envious. I can't help but reflect on whether I really need to fill up all this time, rushing through tasks and blurring the boundaries of life.

For someone like me, who has been working remotely for nearly two years, these boundaries are not defined by specific clock-in and clock-out times, but rather by a mindset or sense of control, allowing myself not to be swept into a daily cycle by these specific tasks.

Sense of Reality#

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Recently, my work involves a technology stack that I am not familiar with, often leading to sleepless nights due to anxiety over not being able to write code. There was even a day when a late-night meeting woke up my senior, and after two weeks of this, I felt somewhat drained. It seems to be in an unsolvable state where I indeed need to invest time to learn and complete this work, yet the occupied time and the emotions that come with it crush the remaining space for life.

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Coincidentally, on Friday, my colleagues Ares and Innei came over to visit. I made a simple steak lunch at home, and in the evening, we went to Tianmuli to take photos, discussing cameras and lenses, stopping at beautifully colored stalls, and playfully aiming our cameras at strangers who were also taking pictures. It was pure joy.

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In the evening, I went to see a movie "I'm Still Here" with my senior at a cinema where you can eat while watching. It was very pleasant, and the whole weekend seemed to be extended because of those few short hours, becoming fulfilling and genuine.

Perhaps sometimes just going out for a walk, touching the raindrops outside the window, and feeling the flow and temperature of the air can inject some sense of reality into life.

My Liberation Notes#

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During this holiday, I spent a few days binge-watching this newly released Korean drama. Initially, I only watched it during meals, but after two episodes, I became hooked. After finishing it, I felt a bit unsatisfied and melancholic, as if I had accompanied them through a lifetime. Their love needs no further words, but what moved me even more was the emotional transmission and cycle among three generations. It seems that we often fall into the same fate choices, yet due to the inheritance from the previous generation rooted in life, there are subtle differences.

I have always liked series like "Reply 1988" and "Friends," which focus more on the trivial daily lives and emotions of a certain stage in life. Perhaps games like P5R are similar; I look forward to finding a sense of companionship in them, and they often give me the courage to move forward or look back during many occasional stages of life.

Interesting Things and Items#

Input#

Although most interesting inputs are automatically synced in the "Yu's Life" Telegram channel, I still selected a portion to list here, making it feel more like a newsletter.

I built a microblog using Telegram Channel messages as content sources - "daily.pseudoyu.com," which makes browsing more convenient.

Podcasts#

【podcast】S1E8.5 - Writing a blog is a cool thing! The topic of this episode turned out to be about revamping my personal website based on Anthony Fu's blog open-source project, which feels quite wonderful, haha.

Favorites#

Articles#

How the Raycast API and extensions work The experience with Raycast has already surpassed similar tools like Alfred by a long shot, and the article interpreting the technical implementation is also very clear.
My Three-Day Heartbeat Principle I was previously very tempted by a review of a DJI drone and ordered it impulsively, but after receiving it, I was too busy to unpack it for three days. I recalled that I used to check the delivery thirty times a day for things I truly wanted, so I returned it.

Videos#

Series#

My Liberation Notes This has become my favorite series in recent years!!! It somewhat brings back the feeling of watching "Reply 1988," but due to the more complete story, it feels like I have accompanied them through their entire lives, and there were several moments that made me cry.
The Last of Us Season 2 As a non-gamer, I had a deep impression after watching the first season, so I’m following up.
Ripley Although the plot doesn't have much suspense, the pacing is great, and I really like the lighting and the unique relaxed feel of the Italians; I want to go.